Why I want to transition:

To feel comfortable in my own skin. (and build confidence.)
To not get judged or automatically assumed a lesbian.
To break out and not be confined in a small box with females. (e.g. Not having to deal with the 'Oh, I totally understand. I'm a girl too.' or the '*roll eyes* Jeez, men.' look glanced in my direction)
Not have to deal with the pressure of getting married to a man, and/or having kids.
To hold my head high when walking, well, anywhere.
Guys will 'accept' me and not think I'm just some dyke dressing up for kicks.
Not get long stares, or uncertain glances when using the restrooms.
My body will stop doing its 'clean-out' process every month.
When I pass away, I'll be known as a man, not a 'woman'.
Be able to date a wider range of women, not limited to just lesbians.
So my mental health doesn't further deteriorate.


My homework to the new psychiatrist I'm seeing, who is totally awesome.

You have been the source of agony my whole life. Because of you, you have corrupted me mentally, physically, socially and damaged several, if not, all of my past relationships with a demented sense of glee.

Because of you, my drinking had spiralled out of control and ended up in hospital overnight from mixing anti-depressants (supplied by the brainless fuckwits who call themselves psychiatrists) with my poison. I wanted to die that night, and truly felt myself slipping away from the grasp of life.

Now, you treasure me with these 'gifts' every month or so and you just make me seethe and despise you even more. Only seven days? Seven days of fucking hell, thank you very much.

You derange and fuck up my perspective on gender, particularly females. I cannot look at one without curling my hand into a fist, trying to bite back any snarky words of sacrasm or sexist remarks. Of course, my own self-hatred projecting onto others isn't really a good thing but if you mention how badly you want a baby or get preggors, don't expect any happy responses. What you will get, is a fucking shitstorm. The one thing I cannot stand are mothers. Specially pathetic, young, stupid, 'Its a woman thing, I'm born to have kids, duh.' kind of thought process totally shits me to death. No offense, but the girl I got a crush on seems to have a sense of mind more than any other goddamn female on the planet. (Yeah, you, osoimaru)

Lesbians? Now that's another matter. My ex-girlfriend (notice the ex) hates penises. That's fine and all, but don't sprout that shit to my face, when you know what I want the most, is the exact same thing you hate to pieces. You don't see me ranting and spewing about how ugly and unattractive vaginas are, do you?? No. And I don't care if you've got a boyfriend. I'll probably most likely be more of a man than he ever fucking will be. So shut the fuck up.

Female bits, I'm going to see a new psychiatrist this thursday, I will finally sort you out once and for all.

From a very miffed FTM,
Kain.

PS. I hate you.

I'm suddenly inspired to do more pictures of them as humans :3 But lacking some ideas, so that's where you guys come in~




I'm willing to do any scenes from the movies, if you supply a screencap or I may possibly remember it from memory if you're lucky :3~ [For example,......instead of Wall-E patiently waiting for Eve to get out of idle-mode, he makes out with her in the rain instead 8D] Or any of the other robot characters from Wall-E as well~ Maybe some totally out there pairings? XD Hurr. Basically, I want to hentai/ecchi the hell out of the characters/movies. You say why? I say why not. Plus, it'll help me draw *coughnaughtybitscough* anatomy better - but that means I'll have to block it out with a box, but that's no problem, because I can link the original in the description. xD Hurrah!

Weird fetishes, bondage, any of the like are totally welcome XD Bring the suggestions oonn~

XD I've got several ideas for characters, including:

Claw the Lion - [link]
Chomp the Shark - ]
Smooch the Cat - ] -------------> All in one - [link]
Blaze the Penguin - ]
Drill the Bird - ]
(More to come, fo sure)

XD;; Sounds dodgy but it's just to name a few.

Taken from

[x] smoked (Once and coughed up a lung.)
[x] consumed alcohol (All teh time, baby!)
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex(Yep, at ex-gf's house)
[] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex (Eeh yeah *shrug*)
[x] had sex (Thanks to alcohol. >_> Ugh.)
[x] had someone in your room other than family (Freweenndss~)
[x] watched porn (*cough*)
[] bought porn
[x] tried drugs (Does weed count?)

TOTAL: 8

[x] taken painkillers (Panadol bby.)
[x] taken someone else's prescription medicine (Inhaler lol I failed 3 times to get it right.)
[x] lied to your parents (But they easily see through them D: )
[x] lied to a friend (Unless its to avoid hurting them.)
[x] snuck out of the house (Tried to at midnight whilst drunk = Fail )
[x] done something illegal (Downloads? lol ;D )
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[x] wished someone to die( ME TOO BK )
[] seen someone die (I'd probably cream buckets if I did.)

TOTAL: 17

[] missed curfew
[] stayed out all night (still yet to do this!!!)
[] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist (Yar, man.)
[] received a ticket
[] been to rehab
[x] dyed your hair
[] been in an accident
[x] been to a club
[x] been to a bar

TOTAL: 20

[x] been to a wild party
[] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[] had a spring break in Florida
[x] sniffed anything (Copic markers lawls *A*)
[x] wore black nail polish
[] wore arm bands
[] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap (Rap sucks.)

TOTAL: 25

[x] dressed gothic
[x] dressed girly (Only to impress ex-gf >_> Fail. )
[] dressed punk
[] dressed grunge (?? what is that??)
[x] stole something (does a Chupachup count?)
[x] been too drunk to remember anything
[x] blacked out
[] fainted
[] had a crush on a neighbor

TOTAL: 30

[x] had a crush on a friend
[] been to a concert
[x] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut (Only on MSN lololololol)
[] installed speakers in a car
[] broken a mirror
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL: 34

[] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper?
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[] cruised the mall
[x] skipped school (Heeeeee :3 Well, Tafe.)
[] had surgery
[] had an injury
[x] gone to court (well, only sat in one :3 It took forever to start lol)
[] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire (Piece of paaper that had my crappily drawn pornz on it)
[] lied about your age

TOTAL: 38

[] owned/rented an apartment/house
[] broke the law in the police's presence
[x] made out with someone who had a GF/BF (Guilty as charged.)
[] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger (Duh. What's an incoherent whiney fat lady gonna do to me?)
[] hugged a stranger
[] kissed a stranger
[] rode in the car with a stranger
[] been harassed
[] been verbally harassed

TOTAL: 40

[] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight (Who the fuck does that needs to be shot.)
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight (Supernatural. Yep.)
[] been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence (Uh yeah. lol)
[] drank and drove
[] prank-called someone
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex (*shrug*)
[x] cheated on a test

TOTAL: 45

If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]